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About Me Member Emotional Poet babygrlca917/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 6 Years
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LostIm lost no matter how you put it try and work it out thats what I am  I dont konw if I should be happy or feel sad  Im so confused as I feel his eyes coast me  I know he wants to kiss me  I know he wants more  I pushed him away because its been so long that I just dont want him touching me  I felt betrayed a bit lost  I feel lost no matter you twist it  I feel distant no matter how I feel  I dont know what to say or do  I dont konw what to feel anymore  I feel for him sadly enough  I feel about him  I see what I shouldn't and I want to feel for him all of me wants to Lost
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something differentYou force me to show a side of me that isn't real  A side that fakes perfection  Throws up sacrifice  and  Dines on deciet  You want me to show a side of me so unreal its realistic  A side that forces reality  Throws up my sanity  and  
Relinquishes Relief  You want me to flash a smile so shiny its blinding  A smile that shatters in the storm  Chews on conformity  and  
Spits out Action  You want me to be a perfect me  A nothing me  An empty me  You want me to be me without pain  You want me to be me without choice  You want me to be me without something different
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untitled 2His eyes seemed so lost and yet so cool as they coasted across my skin giving me the feeling that maybe there was something wrong afterwards.   
He pinched his eyes together  Took a long good look  
Placed a paint stroke from one side of me to another   
His art work was all I was to him  I was so much more   
He measured carefully the space between my lips  my eyes  my nose and my chin  He watched my expression within the painting change from happy to sad   
His art work was all I was to him  I was so much more   
I watched him touch me softly with the paint untitled 2
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untitledClosed off is how I wish to feel  
As days and minutes turn to years and years  No escape from the reality that theres something wrong  No freedom from the fact that Im the only one not feeling apart of something  Everyday is over for me before it begins  I feel like a doll thrown one way then another  I toss and turn in a bed not my own  I split my focus from one thought to another trying to figure which is right  I listen to your words as they flow out of your mouth spewing lies and lies  I hear your thoughts thrown left and right  Your ever cascadeing wonderful feeling of loss  You nev untitled
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Tue Apr 19, 2005, 9:23 AM
I'm realizing lately that all I've been feeling is on the outside. I cried myself to sleep thinking of his beautiful body which wasn't mine anymore and I thought maybe I'm a bit messed up. Then the realization that the man i'm with is for me he cares protects and shows it. He holds me close and makes me feel all there.
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  • Current Residence: Virginia
  • Interests: Art...anything with pain...writing
  • Favourite movie: A Clockwork Orange
  • Favourite band or musician: Chronic Future
  • Favourite genre of music: Punk
  • Favourite artist: Monet
  • Favourite poet or writer: Jane Green
  • Favourite photographer: Jay Maisel
  • Favourite style of art: humor/fantasy
  • Operating System: NONE
  • MP3 player of choice: RIO
  • Favourite game: Pikmin
  • Favourite gaming platform: Gamecube
  • Favourite cartoon character: mickey mouse
  • Personal Quote: noone loves an un-written soul
  • Tools of the Trade: Acrylic paint, Oil Paint, Photoshop, Canon t70 film cam

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~babygrlca9 Feb 27, 2006, 7:55:10 AM
Would you buy my work if I had it available...?

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So I'm left without a soul, now do you want me?

Love is all I can offer you...
"What I want in life is a man who touch me like a person not a play toy."
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~straight-edge Feb 28, 2005, 2:17:05 PM
welcome to the ~straight-edge community
if you´ve some sxe related art or just art against drugs and so on look at the journal on our page to submit it.

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~HeIsCome Dec 19, 2004, 5:02:10 AM
Happy Birthday! Sorry I'm a day late! Oh well. You're journal didn't lok very happy, but it's your birthday! So here is some love to make you happy:
:love: :kiss: :hug: :cake: :cuddle: :giggle: :heart: :party: :blowkiss: :highfive: :smooch: :aww: :rose:

:wave: All my love, and lovely birthday wishes, Maia

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~babygrlca9 Dec 21, 2004, 5:25:27 AM
thanks a lot of people forgot so I needed that... :hug: :clap:

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So I'm left without a soul, now do you want me?

Love is all I can offer you...
"What I want in life is a man who touch me like a person not a play toy."
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~HeIsCome Dec 21, 2004, 1:46:26 PM
On my birthday in November, I thought everyone forgot, so I was upset. Then my friend complimented my outfit, and I said I wore it because I wanted to look nice on my birthday. He said he didn't know it was my birthday! Turns out, I just hadn't told anyone. I guess people aren't psychic. :giggle: Maybe something like that happened with your friends? I'm sure they still love you, though. I'm glad I made you happy! :love:

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~babygrlca9 Dec 28, 2004, 8:33:48 AM
thank you...anyways...but most of them did know they just forgot thats why I was hurt...

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So I'm left without a soul, now do you want me?

Love is all I can offer you...
"What I want in life is a man who touch me like a person not a play toy."
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~VictoriaAsh Nov 26, 2004, 9:48:52 AM
I would like to wish you a great weekend

:sun: :heart: :sun:

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~Viika Nov 21, 2004, 10:00:07 AM
:butterflytwo: have a safe week ! :butterflytwo:

:hug: from your fellow cof member

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~Kitamura Oct 25, 2004, 4:49:18 AM
:floating: Thanks for the Watch :D
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~aragwen Oct 17, 2004, 9:52:17 AM
" A friend is one to whom one may pour out all the contents of one's heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away."

:hug:

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